Dishing out advice may seem far easier than asking yourself the soul-churning question, often either rhetorical or left unanswered. Am I worthy?
Life feels like a movie. You pause, rewind and resume where you left off. Following another’s clapperboard is far easier than your own. Their narrative is easier to confide in than yours. But at what point do you deserve your own spotlight?
Lights, camera, action: without a cue. The storyline written for you is preferable than performing off script. As I look in the mirror, I ask myself what do you want? Are you deserving? And most of all, are you worthy?
Darkness captures, misty-eyed as you recall what lead to you questioning your own reflection.
It’s easy to become consumed. No questions asked, you go unnoticed. But this leaves you exposed, endangered of being ignored, spoken for and simply not heard. It’s easier to lose than find yourself. Before you know it, you’ve become a possession. One last question to forever, sign the dotted line and voila; you’re no longer who you thought you were.
There are many why’s. Many I can’t answer out of humility, once opened I can no longer refrain from. A choice with only two options, respect my own worth, validity, reality, and most importantly staying true to yourself or stroke the ego of another whilst living entrapped in my own silence. I wanted the feeling of home again. But deep down I knew that I’d be the first to remind a loved one who they are. So why do I feel like a hollow, faint sketch?
Many reasons. Too many to draw upon. The want to forget rather than resurrect. Long term memory loss resulting from intoxication by the smoke and mirrors that bury me alive reminds me of euthanasia.
If you don’t acknowledge your own worth, you can’t expect the world to. The temptation to savour minute particles of happiness for a rainy day I know all too well. As I look around whilst the orchestra plays, why do I always bear the broken string?
How many scars should I bare? How many tears should I shed? For the closest to care, my presence unaware.
The route to happiness starts with me. To believe in thee, trust yourself to unequivocally sightsee.
What do you think? Do you feel worthy? What helps you feel worthy? What makes you happy and complete internally? Comment below!
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Great blog. I am working on Friday’s blog about courage to published. This sums it “If you don’t acknowledge your own worth, you can’t expect the world to.”
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Aww thankyouu so much! Ooh I’ll keep my eyes peeled for tomorrow’s blog 🍿😃! Precisely, I love that quote it’s so accurate and the honest truth.
Thankyouu so much again for reading and commenting, Tangie!!🤗🤍
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The journey to self-worth is ongoing. It’s filled with ups and downs, and there’s no right or wrong way to navigate it. The key is to keep moving forward, even when it feels difficult.
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So true!! It’s an ongoing lesson in life to better our future selves. Being flexible to change is key to fulfilling your maximum potential stemming from understanding your self-worth. Easier said than done but it’s a journey we’re all living through!
Thankyouu so much for sharing your insight, Johnbritto!🤗🤍
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There is a school of thought that says one shouldn’t even make self-deprecating jokes about themselves, because even if meant as an honest attempt at humor, they devalue us in the eyes of others. I used to do this a lot and genuinely thought I was being funny. I still make jokes at my own expense from time to time, but only when I feel it’s healthy to laugh at myself for taking myself too seriously.
So, to answer your question, I believe I am worthy and try to curate my mindset to that end.
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This is an Excellent Blog! Do you know who makes me feel worthy is Jesus Christ. There are times when I cannot find worthiness and validation from my own family members. I am celebrating 34 years of being clean and sober from alcohol and smoking marijuana for 18 years. Yes, I validate myself every single day because as an alcoholic and addict all you have are drugs. The average dope fiend does not care about themselves. You know someone; A Common Pleas Court Judge told me to my face that I am better than drugs. She saw potential in me when I was only covering it up with shame. All of your blogs are Excellent! Have you ever considered working as a Therapist or a Social Worker? I do have one suggestion. Please copyright all of your Intellectual Property. Your writings are considered as Intellectual Property. You are an Excellent Writer! Thank you for keeping it real with all of us. I only written three books in 23 years. I am trying to be like you and be more transparent. God Bless You!
Faithfully Submitted,
Anthony Joseph Hopkins
From Dayton, Ohio United States of America
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Aww thankyou! Sometimes family members are too close to seek help from. It can be easier and more useful to confide in someone who’s entirely detached from your life, so you can gain clarity and perspective without bias.
34 years sober and 18 years marijuana free, that’s so incredible!
Your willpower to stop and continue on a drug and alcohol free path, is difficult but immensely rewarding as I’m sure you have experienced and continue to do so!!
Aww thankyouu so much for your kindness, therapist has crossed my mind but I’m unsure how good I’d be at it!😅
I’ll most definitely follow up on my intellectual property so all my articles are safely in my name. Books are difficult, 3 books is extraordinary! Many wouldn’t know where to start with 1, I imagine it must be so rewarding!! Aww you’ve made my day!🥹🤗
Thankyouu so so much Anthony, for always being so open, honest and kind. Your perspective and wisdom is always so welcome and appreciated!! Sending you blessings 🥹😃🙏🤍
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Wow I’ve never thought about it like that, and it’s so accurate, we do suppress or undervalue ourselves from time to time when we put ourselves in the firing line of our own jokes constantly. Possibly a sign of self-preservation using it as a defence mechanism also. I’m going to remember this as I’m naturally a humorous person but I’m going to make a mental note to help establish whether there’s a pattern in whom I aim my humour at🤔, very thought-provoking Kevin! It does absolutely relate to self-worth and confidence.
So glad to hear you’ve masterfully curated your mindset to better your outlook, not only for yourself but to help understand others in more detail!
Thankyouu so much for sharing your extraordinary insight!😃🤍
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Thank you, Antonia. Not sure about masterful, but I try at least 😊
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Just occasionally I can congratulate myself on a job well done, but mostly I just see the problems and the things I could have done better. It comes from being brought up in a generation where we were told not to boast, blow our own trumpets or get too big for our boots. To this day I find it hard to feel worthy for myself even if others tell me I am.
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I have a similar outlook, it’s interesting how common it is. It’s peculiar how there’s a tendency to pick holes in minute details or what we could’ve done better rather than step away to appreciate the full capacity of what we’ve achieved, flaws and all.
I’ve learnt there’s nothing wrong with being a perfectionist or having certain tendencies as long as you allow yourself time to recognise both sides of the coin and not only the negatives. As it can spur us on to complete future jobs with a more wholesome, glass half-full mentality which can actually help solve problems more positively in the long run.
Yes this was something I heard recently, the generation where you were encouraged and told not to get too full of yourself or to never pause and reflect to recognise your achievements which is almost a foreign concept nowadays as people are probably too stagnant today. A middle ground is beneficial, hopefully something that we can teach the next generation!
I hope one day you see what everyone else can, even if that’s by buying a huge mirror and just reflecting for a whole day, hehe!😃
Thankyouu so much for sharing such insight into your journey with self-worth, David!🤗🤍
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Can’t imagine anything worse than reflecting on myself for a whole day – especially in a mirror!! 😂😂
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Haha I’m sure there are worse things, give me a moment to think!😂🤔
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Your words are so true. We have to love ourselves before we can love another. Happy day!
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It shouldn’t be too hard to love ourselves, we’re not too shabby after all! Hehe😄.
So glad you enjoyed this post, thankyouu ever so much for reading and commenting! Happy Thursday!!🤗🤍
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What other way is there to judge your own self worth, other than how other’s may perceive you? Are you not just talking yourself into a make believe state of mind when you do that? I don’t know the answer’s to these questions, all I can do is use the tools I was shown to use as a child when it comes to building your self view. I think when we spend to much time evaluating ourselves we overthink about those things we question. Perhaps we should just live and experience life and let that provide the inner self happiness and peace so many seem to be chasing? In doing and experiencing things enjoy we are doing what makes us happy, and from that comes the feeling of self-worth and contentment. Thus you aren’t looking for others approval for your self-worth you obtain it by sharing and appreciating the experience that others have found worthy.
Nice post! A little early in the week for such a deep dive into ones self, but always a worthwhile endeavor!!😉😉
Have a great day! 🤗
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Possibly, sometimes individuals judgments or opinions of you are far from the truth due to many reasons. You’d have to trust those you ask unequivocally, as their interpretation could have a significant bearing on how you redirect behaviours and overall, life. That must come from people who wish to see you progress, not fail – if you don’t entirely trust your own viewpoint.
Childbearing years are so crucial as they give you the tools to navigate many different scenarios, 100%. I guess it may also depend on how reliable and healthy that diagram may be, the reference point is a fundamental springboard to what aspects you wish to repeat.
Life is a lesson, we’re always learning from every scenario that comes our way. Reflecting and knowing your worth can be ever so important as to who you allow into your life. What you believe you deserve fundamentally comes back to how you interpret your own self-worth.
And definitely, looking for approval from others isn’t a stable, practical path.
Thankyouu so much for sharing your wisdom! Aww thankyouu, you too; have a lovely Thursday!🤗🤍
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I’ve been good at beating myself up in life, but I’ve never asked myself that question.
I like listening to Louise Hay. My entire mindset is shifting.
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We can be our worst critic at times.
This is so peaceful and motivational! Thankyouu for sharing Crystal, I’m going to listen to more Louise Hay!😃🤍
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my relations seem to always have been extremes…either everyone notices me, or I’m totally invisible…….I dislike both about as much…..but the invisible thing, I usually walk away….I meanif no one notices?
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If no one notices your value that’s their blind spot. I just emphasise that by not being in their subjective presence. Putting yourself in situations where you’re treated like a human being, respected and acknowledged is worth your time and energy.
Life is way too short, throw away the cloak of invisibility for good. Or save it for when you choose to wear it. Taking back control is the ultimate confidence boost of self-worth.
Thankyouu so much for sharing, Warren. I really relate to these extremes actually, so interesting!😊🤍
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